Not afraid..

"K i did posted this blog at other blogs acct,
on 07 April 2008 @ friendster blog.
I put this post here just to share my story."


Hmmm..
How do I start this...
Ok...
On the 31st of march 08 Mon,
I had a big fight with my (Dad)!!
It was really a big one..
It was really the most bad fight i ever had with him!
Its all started coz of my sis (after me)
I scolded her bcoz she's so stubborn,
always makes my mom cry,
and the others hate her!
bcoz of her, my younger bro get scolded by my (Dad)
So i get mad with that..
I scolded her and my (Dad) is not happy with that!!
Than that's where the fight start!
He shouted at me and i shouted much louder then him..
He ask me to get out from the house AGAIN!!!!!
I was damn mad at that moment...
I shouted like nobody business..
I don't have respect towards him at all..
He talks like a small kids..
Argue so damn lame!
My other sis was crying..
I was not the nice and sweet me

at that moment..
I talked to him like a gangster!
I guess he was shocked at that time..
Coz he didn't expect me to be so brave to answer
him in a very rude and loud voice (@ 1am)
I think in his mind I'm always a small gal..
Like 16th 17th yrs old gal..
At that moment i felt that even if he wants to
have a fight as in real fight hand to hand, i guess
i will punch him on his face!!
I was so sad..
i did nothing wrong at all..
I'm just scolding my younger sister,
coz she need someone to guide her,
to scold her if she's wrong..
And (responsible) as elder sister...
(Care) for all the younger sisters..
Is it wrong for me to do that?
Am i suppose to get that kinda words from him?
Ask me out from the house again without a good reason?
My mom told me something this morning,
she ask all her child (my siblings)
who's right and who's wrong??
And all of them said my (Dad) was wrong!
He hate me so much!
Reason???
I'm not wearing TUDONG and bcoz Im working...
Hmmmm.. What do u think of that REASONS?
His mad!!!!
Full of reasons...
I really need help...
I need help from someone,
what should i do to make him realize..
Realize that what his doing is wrong!!
Hate me, always wanted me to get out from the house and etc...
I really HATE him so much...
I don't have that respect toward him anymore (As a father)
How he treated me since i was a child,
make me lost that respect towards him...
So U guys out there who have a great father,
please appreciate him...
i never have the thought that i would have a father
that treated me like a step daughter...
Be thank-full if u have a very loving father...
But even tho i have this problem all the while,
since i was a kid, but i still have a choice to leave
my life happy and enjoy my family life style,
just that without a father...
the other sibling they don't have problems with my (Dad)
its just me!! The big question mark in my head...
But its ok tho, Im used to this life..
But sometime i feel sad when a (father) ask U to get out from
the house, not the 1st time not the 3rd times tho! a-lot of times...

: Farah Diyah.. 2008